Thursday, August 21, 2008

zen wednesday - back to school

i love being a mom, i love being a teacher, and i love both

i cringe when hear people say, oh, you have to go back to work. i want to say, no, i WANT to go back to work, and i am still a good mom! i love teaching. i am excited about the first day of school. i love my students and when i am there i'm going to give them everything i’ve got.

the next question is always “what are you going to do with avery?” well, i am going to love her, play with her, read to her, teach her new things…oh you mean when i abandon her to go make money (the fortune that comes with public school teaching)?

she will be in a place where she learns more than we can teach her on our own. she will be where she is loved and cared for and challenged and told “no” and “good job” and “share.” she is going to figure out that there are lots of people that love her, not just mommy and daddy, and there are safe places besides our house. as the youngest, and smallest of the group, there are a lot of things that she will learn from the other kids, and i think there are things that she can show them as well (not just climbing skills).

i have mixed emotion this time of year. i miss avery and i want to be with her, but i also love teaching and i am excited to go back. i think many parents have to face this choice and it is not easy. what is right for someone my not be right for someone else. my favorite blogger-friend, katie has a different perspective and as a former classroom teacher and mother of four, i am convinced that just because she is not in a classroom with someone else’s kids, that does not mean she is not a teacher. she is the most important teacher those 4 kids have and how lucky they are that she is their mom too!

going back to work is hard. i don’t want to leave avery. but i know that she is leaving one loving home and going to another. she is safe and loved and i think those are the best lessons we can teach her. her family is more than just the people in this house.

5 comments:

taylor said...

I love your hair cut!! It is very cute :) It is funny that most "people" often feel the need to share their opinions about Parenting and Teaching, because everyone has a parent and teacher. When really they may not know anything about either. You are gifted teacher, and an amazing mom. Your students need you and so does Avery. The good news is you do a great job at both, so Rock On Stephanie!!!

Katie said...

Great post, Stephanie. And thanks for the shout out;) Lucy wore her sweet onesie today, so I'll be posting a pic of her soon. I am amazed at your wonderful balancing act of motherhood/teaching. Taylor is right, and Avery and your students are blessed to have you!

Omi Ford said...

I'm glad that you are the woman you are! Avery and every other grown up or child who meets you is touched by your love, logic and ability create teachable moments! Love you!

Dana said...

I loved that post Stephanie! It made me feel better about leaving Jackson. I know he's going to be just fine!

MELANIE said...

I hope you and Avery had a good first week back. I love my job as a mom and also as a nurse where I am able to have 4 days off with my kiddos. It's hard to leave them--some days are easier than others... ;) Avery is SO cute!!